Ups & Downs

Like they say, every relationship has its ups and downs.

But at what point do the downs begin to outweigh the ups?

One second, we are happy as can be, cuddles all night with lots of laughter and kisses and teasing. And the very next, I am kicking him out of the house.

It is perhaps because we are too comfortable? Are we able to easily take out our pain and angst on each other because we know that neither of us will ever leave? (Although he has three times before)

I just do not get how one relationship can be so bipolar, for lack of a better word.

At what point are the tears and the okay-ish nights ever going to make me strong enough to get fed up and walk away?

The ups and the downs are not few and far between, but those are rather the perfect moments.

In my head, I set my expectations high. I want my life to be a novel. I want the passion that lies between the pages of my favorite book to somehow speak to him, to make him into a more emotional and appreciative man.

But my life isn’t a JoJo Moyes or Nicholas Sparks story.

It is life. It is real.

The ups & the downs are signals for what is yet to come in our future…


Quote of the Day: 1.15.17

“You have the freedom to be yourself, your true self, here and now, and nothing can stand in your way.”

-Richard Bach

If you remain true to yourself, nothing can stand in your way. It is all about following your passion, bettering your skills, and never giving up.

Today, you can establish the start of the rest of your life. You can gain your morals, and your momentum. You can find out who you are, and stick to it.

Nothing is stopping you from following your heart and doing what you want. Your mistakes are your own, and you have the freedom to make decisions as you wish.

There is only one you, and you have the ability to decide who that is going to be.

Quote of the Day: 1.12.17

Quote of the Day: 1.12.17

Sometimes you have to stray from the straight and narrow to find out the depths of who you are. It takes more than reading a self-help book and attending a therapy session or two to fix to problems and answer the questions that lie within you.

Do not be afraid to take a chance and fail. Let your curiosity lead the way.

“Not all those who wonder are lost.”

-J.R.R. Tolkien

Wondering can seem like a waste of time for some, though many find the thought of taking time to explore the world or just literature to be therapeutic for the mind and soul. Sometimes it takes a break from the real world and a journey into a undefined world to help one discover who they are.

Wondering can be the best therapy, so do not be afraid of the uncertainty of it all.

Quote of the Day: 1.11.17

Quote of the Day: 1.11.17

“Not knowing when dawn will come, I open every door.”

-Emily Dickinson

Powerful, but true.

We never know when our time will come to leave this Earth, and when your time comes, what do you want to be remembered by?

Do you want to be known for taking every chance? Wishing on every star? Trying everything to really find where your true passions lay?

If we sit back and let life pass us by we might never know how wonderful certain things are, whether in our preference zone or not.

Open every door and live a full life.

Do not wait until you are on your deathbed and filled with regret.

La La Land: The Greatest Film/Musical of All Time

La La Land: The Greatest Film/Musical of All Time

Ryan Gosling and Emma Stone starred inĀ La La Land, a musical released in late 2016 that changed my life.

The musical did much more than simply tell a love story, but encapsulated the audience through a tale of passion and persistence. It made following my dreams feel like a realistic option.

If you haven’t seen the musical, I would recommend getting off the computer right now and making the trip to the theater.

For me, check out this article.

Quote of the Day: 1.10.17

Quote of the Day: 1.10.17

“If you follow your bliss you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while, waiting for you, and the life that you ought to be living is the one you are living. Follow your bliss and don’t be afraid, and doors will open where you didn’t know they were going to be.”

-Jospeh Campbell

What Campbell is trying to say is that you never know when life is going to surprise you, and when the things you are doing are going to lead you to an even greater destiny. You never know when opportunities are going to come knocking, or when your passions will change and evolve into something greater than you imagined before.

It is important to always keep your mind open, and to always be willing to allow life to surprise you because you never know when something amazing is going to happen.

Don’t be afraid to take a risk, or to open a new door that jumps in your way.

Who knows?

You might fall in love, again, and again, and again.

A break from Winter break?

I’ve been back for almost 3 weeks with 2.5 left to go, and I am already getting tired of working all the time. While my bank account could really use the money, and so could my motivation, I dread going to work 4 or 5 times a week to be on my feet instead of on the couch.

But some things you just have to push through and rationalize a little bit in your head.

Check out my article here.