I have benn happy lately. Almost too happy.
I think that’s my problem.
Whenever I get too happy, things always go south. I always get crushed and my mood is restored back to sadness. I let myself get too caught up in the good things that are happening that I let my guard down, and when I turn back around, the pain hits me.
And it hurts.
I have trained myself to minimize my emotions. To stop letting myself get to happy because no matter what I always end the week with an overwhelming feeling of regret and loneliness.
It’s not worth it to even try to be happy when I can’t ever allow myself to truly ever be.